It's been a while

Here I am in bed

And apparently they've all said

Ive got everything to make my smile

Yet nothing seems to bring out my child

Toes wiggling like that Tuesday

Aching arm too great to say

This time it's up in my head

Pain killers just made it bled

Fuck that broken arm

And all those fire alarms

Getting better was the only hope

It was all just a joke

Toes are still wiggling more than ever

But this time it's an infection

With a simple call to the nurse

And syringe injection

Ill only get worse

It takes me back to the last time I wrote 

And that too was a fucking joke 

How about this life?

It'll never get better.

Wiggling toes turn to gnashing teeth

And who's where to hear my scream?

That noise is simply too loud

NO ONE sticks around.

Why would they stay?

I'd leave myself if I could find away

That bridge sounds better and better

I had so much fucking hope

Thought it was all better

Kicking my feet into the bed frame

Now it hurts more than ever

I long for a different world

One that isn't set up like this one

There's no hope here. 

Each direction is its own destruction

That parking garage wrecks my mind

A perfect world lives up there. 

And part of me dies when I think about it

Cause here I am now

With everyone but myself

The only person I could never get rid of

But never actually can seem to find.

I'll race you to the bridge

But you have to promise to jump first