Basil with lime

I went for a long walk tonight 

Among the mist and lamp light 

Too cloudy of a night for a moon

Houses blasting their drunk tune

I met a man sitting on the staircase

Thought I startled him but he never moved his face

He wore a leather jacket and red shoes

A cup of coffee mixed with some booze

He had a sign hanging on his back

Hung in a way you

Knew it wasn’t supposed to be there

As I looked closer at the words on this plaque

I began to read a few-

“Tell me to grow out my hair”

Confused as I was because

This man was bald you see

But his beard was curly and ran long and free

Down his flannel shirt also red

What was going on in his head?

As the tunes from the parties died down

My ears and Brain making them not so loud

I realized this man was making his own song

He was whistling a story- carrying it along

His story went like this

He had lost a best friend at aged 15

And lost his left eye later at 16

He went to train to be a carpenter 

But found out he was allergic to sawdust

By the time he wanted to marry he worked as a waiter

24, but far too old for a game of trust

As his story went on for a time

I noticed it began not to rhyme

He whistled a darker tune now

This old bard telling me how

He’d been let down one too many times

Tried to write but forgotten one too many lines

He once fell in love with a girl

Who told him to wait by a maple tree

 she left and got dinner 

With his best friend

While he planned out their day lying under the maple tree. 

Another woman was in his life

This one he wouldn’t be fooled twice

The two girls were months in between 

Surely a trick would be seen

But she took him just to play 

Telling him she loved him

And taking it back the next day

More like this went on until 

Old red shoes said “fuck it-

“All along i thought it wasn’t me

If I tried hard enough

Or changed this

Wore nice clothes

Or changed that

Surely my number would one day hit

“Yet here I am with a bunch of empty tickets

And every single one of those ‘busy’s’ and ‘mentors’ and fake laughs and made up scores

All the ‘plans’ and eyes kept away

The ignoring and ‘some other day’

They were all just ‘fuck you’s’ 

All in their own special way.”

Before I knew it the whistling had stopped

I was seated next to red shoes man plopped

On the stairs it beginning to rain

I gave him a cigarette but said nothing

We sat and smoked till away went the pain.

It's been a while

Here I am in bed

And apparently they've all said

Ive got everything to make my smile

Yet nothing seems to bring out my child

Toes wiggling like that Tuesday

Aching arm too great to say

This time it's up in my head

Pain killers just made it bled

Fuck that broken arm

And all those fire alarms

Getting better was the only hope

It was all just a joke

Toes are still wiggling more than ever

But this time it's an infection

With a simple call to the nurse

And syringe injection

Ill only get worse

It takes me back to the last time I wrote 

And that too was a fucking joke 

How about this life?

It'll never get better.

Wiggling toes turn to gnashing teeth

And who's where to hear my scream?

That noise is simply too loud

NO ONE sticks around.

Why would they stay?

I'd leave myself if I could find away

That bridge sounds better and better

I had so much fucking hope

Thought it was all better

Kicking my feet into the bed frame

Now it hurts more than ever

I long for a different world

One that isn't set up like this one

There's no hope here. 

Each direction is its own destruction

That parking garage wrecks my mind

A perfect world lives up there. 

And part of me dies when I think about it

Cause here I am now

With everyone but myself

The only person I could never get rid of

But never actually can seem to find.

I'll race you to the bridge

But you have to promise to jump first

Hey there kiddo

They say it's been the hottest summer yet

And I'll be the first one to bet

The stars are shining brightest down through the trees

For this summer when together was called you and me

Adventures to the lake and charlottes uptown

A sandy beach to watch the sun go down

The biggest smiles that never seem to leave

This summer that joy was pronounced 

Seth and car-lee

Finding the first star and sleeps in the car

Endless movies and late night stories

There's nothing I wouldn't trade for more time with you

The days when future pointed to kiddo and boo

Some nights like this my mind seems to go numb

Nothing enters my eyes and there's sand on my tongue

But This time around there's more hope to see

Nothing is too dark when I'm dreaming of Wendy

Uncertainty and fear, anxiety and tears

But

I'm not lost this time, I've still found a rhyme.

Cause fears got nothing on dinner out on the deck

This summer when love felt like kisses on the neck.

As sure as the heat at tomorrow's high noon

College days will be here too soon

Us two sweetumses will surely soon see

The future is also called "you and me."

The future can wait

When it's all said and done

Will you still be my sun?

I want Every hour starting yesterday 

Please, tell me what you'll say.

There's two things I can promise you

Two things I know to be true

The first you know and will love to hear

The second is simply nothing but fear.

My first promise sounds like this:

You're the one I want to miss

I'll put you above all the rest

I promise to give you my very best.

The second promise here it goes:

Pain will have its greatest show.

If we agree to put us at the first

I can promise you there will be hurt.

I'll call you each and every night

Voicemails will be a familiar sight

But voices only carry so far

Faces fade in the dark

You can come and visit me

So many adventures and things to see

But each Sunday afternoon

A goodbye will come too soon

I'll drive home to visit you

Old adventures will now feel new

We'll kiss like our first to the end of the day

But will that keep me from crying as I drive away?

No ones ever depressed at the beach

Kites and sun and sand on my feet

Will my mind be there with me?

Or will you be all i see?

Basketball, friends and senior year

You're gonna graduate with a cheer

Can you sleep with a closed door

When my shirts don't smell like me anymore?

Do you want me on every bad day?

Those days when we have nothing to say?

Will you want me when you're sick of missing me?

When giving ups the only option you see? 

I dream of you in the crowd cheering

As Crossfit events I've been fearing

I want to compete with you by my side

Sweaty kisses full hearts and smiles high

It's gonna be a mental game

When everyone tells you you're insane

For staying with a guy so far away

Will you be mine on that day?

Hey it's only three hours time

Not so far with excitement in mind

But it's a long three hours back

When you're going through a heart attack

You need to get sleep for tomorrow

But when I'm having a day of sorry

Will you stay up late

To accompany me on a cell phone date?

There's a lot of guys running around

And you are a lovely clown

When they see you all alone

Will I still be your one?

I want Christmas with you

And Easter too

Thanksgiving and New Years

And movies that bring us to tears

Maybe we'll have some kids

Fight sometimes when we flip our lids

Play the lava game- I dare ya

Visit Corey in Bulgaria

I want to be poor in Colorado 

With you and some avacado

A tiny house that freezes in winter

Switching turns praying at dinner

One thing I can't promise is that we won't change

That our lives may never be rearranged 

But I see us goingn to sky

And that, to me, is at least worth a try.

Poem poem

For me today this sky won't do

I'd need a different world to have you

Pour me a glass of wine

And try to buy me some time

This table cloth is dirty

And it's already 1 thirty

Our glasses have sweat through

The wood beneath as morning dew

Teach me to love In a new way

I'm being broken every day

Waiting for you like western rain

Carrying hopes full of pain

The fire burns bright

But no one sees the light

I'll take  another glass of whatever

Any storm I'm glad to weather

With you as my hope's eye

Nothing really is goodbye

It's not that hard to just keep going

But it's near impossible to go on knowing

That the light at the end of the cave

Is not a girl I care to save 

Oh how I'd run till I flew and burn

If the light was coming from your lantern

Take a walk with me down abbey road

I'm sure you'll remember not long ago

Roundabouts spun us to outer space

Where we found the most wonderful place

A place full of days and endless night

Luminous only by joy's pure light

Please don't forget that golden glow

That plce in my heart that only you'll ever go

 

Kodaline

You're probably off now growing older

I'm not supposed to care

More jobs and friends you're getting bolder

I'm Just playing at the fair

"Love will set you free" they say

"Learn to let go" I hear  is "in"

"It'll come back to find you one day"

But it won't nor has it ever been

All I want is nothing less

Than To hear you come confess

You love me more than anything

 You love me a little bit

You've loved me a whole year now

 You've loved me for an hour

You want to love me

Any of the above

All of the above

Nothing but the above

In every dream You wreck my sleep

Waking me another memory to keep

I try to forget you in the day

But my mind remembers as soon as I lay

Joy unpassed since that life

Gone in the past with the new night

Dreams of cruises and chikfila

Running the forest lost and afraid

Let me be your lost boy

Cause only You know to find me at the bay

And it's always you I've needed to wave

Be my Jane I'll swing you from the vines

I'll hold you in tears of storming times

Be my beauty and only you I'll adore

There's never been a beast that needed it more

I'd take you on a magic carpet ride

A trip to the moons dark side

Anywhere you could dream to dare

It'd be my joy to take you there

Don't you see you light up my sky?

Yes I realize it's dangerous inside

But I've let go falling to earth

Hopefully soon I'll hit the dirt.

Carnival

Try to let it go 

And the world will begin to show

You each and every place

Keeps pushing it back into your face

All the dreams you had

All those memories good and bad

You thought they were past

But the future points they'll last

Sunsets and backpacks

Rainbow shirts wooden nicknacks

Hopes for past thoughts to be repeated

And not enough anger to be treated 

Floundering like a fish caught In a net

One day they'll see the rest

People will want to here me tell a story

Gotta let go of Nemo to save Dory

There's gopros and new girl shows

A sailboat for whenever the wind blows

Sunsets still light up the evening

And ever so ease the pain that's seething

Nemo will come back around

As long as we all swim down 

They'll go back home to the anemone

With the greatest story in all the sea

The waves and the buildings will help me forget

But I promise I'll never make a bet

On red as Long as black is winning

I can't afford to lose while grinning

Let the ocean clean both our feet

Taste the ugly and cheerful defeat

There's always joy to be found

Even with your face on the ground