It was all for you

There's some things, they say

That just won't fit into words

Pushing and shoving this and that way

The deepest thoughts are never heard

I will try

-Though I'll share this with no one-

To describe the sky

 Hopefully with some sense of a tone

You weren't just my first girlfriend

You're al I dream anyone could be

wildest hopes of mine you'd far transcend

You only ever brought pure joy to me

I don't know if it was my imagination

Or the fact that I was loved by An angel

The whole universe in cooperation

Life was bright and it never changed

Once upon a time

I couldnt even listen to music

Cause tunes hummed in lullabies

Made me only think back to you

Emotions to dark to put Into words

I was just so damn lost

With no idea where to turn

Don't you see you were my Sun?

Every poem for two years now

A step back in memories time

So dangerous yet I couldn't

Just tell myself it wasn't real

They covered up that bench we

Carved our names by the sea

And I go there and a voice says to me

Did it really happen? Or was it a movie?

I always salute that park in town

Yet keep my eyes looking down

Our first kiss like it was yesterday

Please tell me you know the way

I wish you were here

If you could read my mind you wouldn't understand

How beautiful you are to me.

You are a ten you are a perfect score

However you like to say it

You are perfect to me

I don't know where red hair came from

But I can spot yours a mile away

There will never be a girl I meet again

That I don't compare to you

I try to tell Noah

How bad I want to get you back

And he tells me be prepared if you don't like me back

He doesn't get

I can't be around you without thinking of dates we could go on

I can't talk to you without shaking because I want to tell you what you do to me

Yet I have to keep those words in

Cause you don't want to hear them

I'll go to the park alone

And that's fine I'm not stupid

I get you don't want me

But you don't get how I want you

I'm sure you've noticed I don't look you in the eyes 

When we talk but you never asked why

It because I can't bear another memory 

Of looking into the blue that rivals the sea

I know I can love other people

I'm not single minded

But to think the memories I have are dead

They will not ever happen again

That

That breaks my heart

Because I'd give anything to hold you on a night like this

To hear you tell me you like me

To see you smile at me because of me

Instead of at someone who only pretends to love you

Maybe this isn't the end

I surely don't know

But I need to let go I think

And begin to end again

I don't think you'll ever read this

But if you do

Know that I'd jump into that pool for you

Whether it was full of concrete or not

I can only control some of my dreams about you

But others will haunt me to the day I die

I'm sorry if I annoy you with my winking or stupid stories

But you've got to realize:

I'd kill myself if I didn't at least try

I do believe that life goes on in time

But what I also know 

Is that you've ruined a part of mine

Down day 1

I saw You today

But you didn't see me

We talked today

But you didn't say anything to me

I'm just a shape to you

You're everything to me

I'm another pair of shoes

You're all I dream to envy

I'm starting to see things as they are

Hopeless, lost, and just so damn far

You'll never feel this love the same

As it was before now I'm a name

The most heart wrenching thought

 that's always got my attention caught

Is that I let you walk away

Without even saying goodbye

I have sweet, painful memories

Your voice sweeter than symphonies

The echo of your heart drumming

Your eyes a lofty tune humming

I was yours and you were mine

I'd never felt fullness so divine

Blowing in the wind your elusive red hair

My Wendy and your Seth the bear

The saddest thought I'll have is when

I know those eyes will never again

Look at me that way

 You once did and say,

"Let's go to California?"

the lies I must tell myself

a sliver of hope creeping through the door
or a glance perhaps by accident- i wouldn't know
the sound of your feet on the same floor
theres too many signs to show

I've always been a hopeful soul
cup of water is ever half full
and in the same way
i'm hoping with all my heart that youll stay

maybe my mind has already taken it too far
but I wont live without another scar
from at least trying to get you to see
all the things we could be

im going to tell you straight
its not a matter of fate
i wont take anything but "yes"
"I'd love to take you on a date"

Im too young and see too dark
hear sin in every bark
to let this pass by our of fear
i'd kick myself for years

I want to hurt again when you leave
oh cant you like me believe
that the pain so bad only comes
when there has been nothing but love

be honest with me dear
don't say no because of fear
let me try to love you again
forever from yesterday is when

Aching hearts cannot speak

Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
But on earth indifference is the least
We have to dread from man or beast.

How should we like it were stars to burn
With a passion for us we could not return?
If equal affection cannot be,
Let the more loving one be me.

Admirer as I think I am
Of stars that do not give a damn,
I cannot, now I see them, say
I missed one terribly all day.

Were all stars to disappear or die,
I should learn to look at an empty sky
And feel its total dark sublime,
Though this might take me a little time.

What is there to say about what's already been taken away? You don't see me and all I see is you

You've never dreamed but of others when I have only dreamed of you

You've only longed for peace and love and things that are easy to get while I have longed for you

Tell me you're sorry and I'll ask why

You don't love me will be your reply

I don't think I could ever not love you

Or at least dream things could happen again

Maybe that's too hopeful

I have no way of finding out